New year first diary mood and I want to write English without reasons

2023.01.05

Last doodle from last year about my boyfriend's and my persona 🥹

No idea where to start so let's talking about why I write this one with English:
Since with English-speaker pals, have a boyfriend, my poorly English skill is getting better bit (at least than when before graduation from highschool..... I was can't even read any simple English), then stop thinking about improve my English for going to worldwide especially Wales, where my boyfriend lives in.
Also instead of writing my mother language (Mandarin) for some reason I feel more comfortably when typing in English, I'm even not a westernaboo (I think???) but totally because fast to type. Then there's theory about writing dairy in English helps more for writing skills, so...... that's why.

It's been 5 days of 2023, but crazy shits happens on me, there's normal new stuffs and plans like works, but god, one of things from yesterday (4th) is totally insane.
Speak of talking with English-speaker friends, I mostly uses discord because all of my friends are there instead of other media, in discord, I also joined some server of same interest like me, although I'm too shy (or anxious?) to talk with strangers on there, at least people I had meets are nice, until one weirdo on yesterday.

That time I was do little doodle about Ristar, I heard one message sound from discord, so check out my DMs then saw a user who from one of server about an animation, first, the user seems nice, they just greeting and asks me to join their server, I'm not a fan of join random server, also there's so much reasons like safely first, joining a server needs times and thinking for me, so I just response to the user of fact about how I'm not joining too much servers.

I have NO IDEAS what's going on with myself or that user, I know myself kinda response wrongly, that user becomes more upset (I even didn't say any rube and toxic words), and they starts self-blaming, even their picture of self-harm, although looks back these any be fake, but I was scared so trying to help the user, then telling these to my other pals even my boyfriend, my boyfriend tells me I need to warn about this user on the server where they from, finally I warn everyone on the server, and one of admin says the user actually is a troll, who keeps harassment admins (I assume that user has does other toxic), at least the user gets blocked, it's finally ended but still feeling crazy for me anyway, hopefully no more bad stuffs on this year like that.

The Ristar doodle I was doing, also posted on Deviantart. (Update in december 30th 2024: I already leaved deviantart)

By the way new year more wishes, I gonna to work harder for money so I can buy everything freely, oh yeah also plans for going to Wales, WHY everything needs so much money and gone expensive, even basic packs for foodpanda driver, the backpack is like 1000NTDs and new version is 2000NTDs, whatever I still need to work for more money for my family and future ughhhhhhhh